November 1st, 2007
Its Been A Long Long Time
Sometimes you have to tell random people random things in order to feel better. It hasn't really worked for me lately but I'm still trying it because I think I've been telling the wrong things to the wrong sorts of people.
I don't really like the person I've become. I never thought I'd have to say that. Despite many regrets and mishaps I've always gotten through it because I've always liked who I am as a person. Right now I don't like me. I made alot of changes trying to be alot of different things, trying to keep up with people I thought had left me behind. I should have let them leave, I shouldn't have given in I should have stood up for what I believed in before I became addicted to the new way of being. I wanted things to stay the same, i didn't relies that I was making changes in order for that to happen, and when you really think about that how much sense does that make? I did want to change alot of things though; changes I thought would make me happier.
I wanted to be more popular,
I wanted to hang out with more people,
I wanted to go to more parties,
Honestly, I wanted to date more boys.
So I made all that stuff happen for me (I'm actually quite good at setting things in motion when I want to be), thinking its what I wanted. But looking back it hasn't really made me any happier. I just get drunk more often and do more stupid things, and don't let anyone tell you that being drunk doesn't make you do stupid things, because it does. And I just can't be happy with myself because none of the stuff I use to stand for is there anymore, I lost it somewhere along the way. I lost it somewhere in the changes that were suppose to make me happier.
And I go to more parties, but my grades are terrible
And I talk to more people, but I have less friends
And I spend alot more time with boys, but there all the wrong kind and none of them will ever be a relationship
And I'm more popular, but with the wrong sort of people.
And I wondering how I get back to where I once belonged.
Posted by illiterate at 11:13 PM |
December 19th, 2006
In the second section of the novel Doctor Tavish contacts Paula again and forces her to come in the the clinc every week or he will tell her parents of her condition. Palua comes in buy, not without a fight. Ahe has been water bloating and attaching wieghts to herself in and attempt to make her apear hevier. But as Paula continued to lose weight it became harder to trick Doctor Tavish. One day after drinkin nine glasses of water Paula is forced to wieght over half and hopur for Doctor Tavish. She ends up having to use the washroom befor she is let in to see him and her deception is ruined. She marches out of the office in another one of her huungered frenzies but her mother aprehends her befor she can begin to gorge. Her mother confronts her about her anorexic/ bulimic tendancys and sugests family councelling, but Paula cons her way out of it and sugest that she work on it at home. Her father agrees with this idea and forces her to eat everything on her plate at dinner, and refuses to let her up after dinner to prevent her from vomitting. But Paula always has a solution, this time it comes in the form of laxitives and exurcise.
While Paulas weight loss continues she also learns more about her grandmothers armanian past and the genocide of the armanian people. PAula is supprized at the conditions that these people had to live through. Her brother Erik however is more suprised at how mush his sister is beginging to resemble the emasiated armanian survivours.
When Paula continues to lose weight and goes below one hundren and 15 pounds Doctor Tavish forces her to become hospitalized. Paula is kept isolated in her hospital room, not allowed to do anything untill she gains weight. The way she keeps her sanity is by playing the hand held game her brother snuck in for her. Paula attempts to fight back against the forced weight gain by turning off her IV drip at night, but her drip is being monitored and Paula is faced with defeat. Some confort is gained however when Paula get to see her grandmother because Pauline is volunteering at the hospital. But Paula continued to lose wieth as day after day she eats next to notheing. By the end of the section Paula weighs a mere one hundred and eleven pounds.
Posted by illiterate at 03:51 PM |
October 2nd, 2006
Examining Stereotypes
“Canadian Bacon”
1) a. The movie “Canadian Bacon” exposes several typical stereotypes of the American nation and people as a whole. The first very notable characteristic is that America’s economy is driven bye the production of weapons and that they are lost, when not able to fight in a war. This stereo type is show when the Hacker factory lays off its workers due to the need to no longer produce weapons after the clod war, showing how America’s economy will buckle with out war. This part of the movie also shows how in love with war the American population is, as a large number of people show up to the auction to purchase war machines of their own. The second stereotype the movie displays is the fact that all Americans are obese. This is shown when the American sheriff attempts to climb the stairs of the CN tower and is panting and out of breath by the end, this by its self wouldn’t be so bad but the fact that the elite task force is even more dismal in there attempt to climb to the top. The movie also displays Americans as rude, not bothering to apologize as they push their way through a crowd. Finally the movie displays Americans as paranoid as the first thing the city of Niagara Falls NY does when they find out Canada is planning to attack is begin to guard the towns facilities and mount a first line of defense.
b. Canadians stereo types, similar to the American ones, are present through out the movie. The first most evident stereo type is that Canadians have an inferiority complex being located next to the United States. To compensate for this they have built the CN Tower as a symbol of national pride and to show that Canada to is a large nation. The movie all so shows Canada as a nation with a very low population in it’s cities, this is portrayed when the United States sheriff ask were everyone is and a Canadian responds by saying “… their all at the tower…” as if the entire population of Toronto could gather quite comfortably around the base of the tower. The movie evidently pegs Canadians as hockey fanatics while the US is only mildly amused. The camera shows the Americans sitting on one side of the arena acting as a normal crowed would, and then it shows the Canadians over ecstatic and cheering while dressed in both Canadian and the teams colours. The movie also shows Canadian as fanatics for the French Canadian culture, upholding the French Canadian laws by making sure that even slanderous graffiti is in both French and English. Also at about the same time in the movie it is exaggerated as to how much less the Canadian dollar is, comparing 10 American dollars to 1000 Canadian.
2) I believe that the movie does not accurately portray North American society. While many of the base examples in the movie are accurate to North American society, they are taken and blow so out of proportion and exaggerated so much that they really can no longer accurately depict North America. Yes, certain Americans and even groups of Americans are rude, obese or paranoid, but not so much to the existent that is portrayed in the movie. Yes, certain Canadians and even groups of Canadians are hokey fanatics and concerned with French rights, yes the American dollar is worth more then the Canadian one, but it is bye no means a 10 to 1000 ratio. So while the movie may be based on truths, they have been made so inaccurate so to over exaggeration that they no longer depict North American society.
3) I believe that in order to stop perpetuating the stereotypical myths about each country we have to educate children at a young age so that they know the truth about each country before they have heard stereotypes. By educating the next generating through school we can stop the stereotypes from continuing in each nation. If you are geographically located next to one another country you should be learning the proper information about that country.
4) I believe that this film was made and/or produced by and American. I believe this because of the main focus of the movie being on the American Nation and the fact that the main character are
Posted by illiterate at 09:43 PM |
September 29th, 2006
Macromolecules
Protiens
1) All proteins are typically constructed from one set of 20 amino acids, amino acids are joined together through dehydration synthesis to form a peptide bond one or more polypeptide chain twists into a unique 3D shape which determines the protein function.
2) The monomers of a protein are its amino acids.
3) Most amino acids are made up of a hydrogen atom, a carboxyl group (-COOH), an amino group (-NH2), and a "variable" group.
4) The "variable group" is what differsin amino acids.
5)Amino acids are joined toghether by a dehidration reaction/synthisis forming peptide bonds this is also called a condensation reacftion.
6) Hydrolysis is the name of the reaction that breakes down amino acids, by replacng theh missing water molucue.
7) When a number of amino acids are linked together by peptide bonds, a polypeptide chain is formed.
8) Protiens are made up of amino acides arranged in a linear chain and joined by peptide bonds.
9) The unique formation of the protien determines it's function.
Carbohyrates
1) CH2O is the general formula of a monoscacharide.
2) Two monosaccharides joined together by a glycosidic linkage is called a double sugar or disaccharide.
3) Monosccharides are the monomers of carbohhydrates.
4) Dehydration synthesis is how monosaccharides join toghether to form a polysaccharide, this is also called a condensation reaction.
5) Hydrolosis is the prosses that breakes polysaccharides into monosaccharides.
6) Some examples of polysaccharides include starch, cellulose and glycogen.
Lipids
1) The inability to disolve in water it the common link that is simmilare between all lipids.
2) Fats are composed of fatty acids and glycerol.
3) Fatty acides can be classified as either saturated or unsaturated.
4) phospholipids are compossed of two fatty acids
Posted by illiterate at 09:59 AM |
July 5th, 2006
I Busy, even during the summer
So I have started summer school, I won't lie five hours of math is far far from fun but I hope that by putting up with it now my grade 12 year will be better. We get 20 minutes for lunch and I never have time to finish my whole lunch. Despite it only being my second day i just keep telling myself it's only a month it will all be over soon. Now if you exscuse me I have a test already tomorow and I need to study.
Posted by illiterate at 08:26 PM |
June 11th, 2006
For Fridays That Turn Into Saturday Mornings
So yesterday I finished my final lego project worth 30% of my final mark, I am happy to say that it went off without a hitch and my group members and I should get good marks. After school I helped my sister get ready for Prom. She looked beautifull and now i can't wait for my own prom. After that I went to bubble tea and the movies with some of my friends. I got back at about the same time as my sister but she headed out to an after party after that. So i'm sitting at home alone (because my parents were away for the weekend) and i'm thinking damit i don't want to go to bed yet. So I went down stairs and I got a beer and said to my self to night i am going to drink my first entire beer (my plans of never drinking didn't really go over so well for those of you who remember). So i'm watching tv and getting pretty tired, i think i was a quarter of the way through when i fell alseep. I woke up becasue i heard this strange fizzing sound. I'm covered in sweat so i must have been having a nightmare and knocked my beer over. I got up and mopped it up, so much for finaly having a beer. I started to feel kinda ill so I went to the bathroom. I kinda had some dry heaves and i didn't want to leave cause i really was starting to feel bad now. So the next thing I know is that my sister is home and apparently i was sleeping on the bathroom floor. I got up and helped her drag her very very drunk friend into the house. We offered to let him sleep on our couch but by that time he was already passed out on the living room floor. And thats about it, my sister (who did not get drunk) and i sleped in out parents bed down stair incase somthing happend to her friend. I woke up the next morining and that was my firday and most of my saturday morning.
Posted by illiterate at 09:34 PM |
June 8th, 2006
Busy Does Not Even Begin To Describe My Life
I haven't had a spare second during the entire month of may. So rather than do a tremedously big entry i'll just tell you a little about whats been going on in my life.
1) WECSSAA, for track needless to say that i did rather poorly but I had fun and I ran a really good 1500 by my standards (I also saw the most amazing but I have ever seen on a guy, and it was in spandex and everything)
2) So I ran for exsecutive elections, I went for VP of the student forum, and guess what, I won! Well technicaly I ran unapposed but still. I am now having tons of fun doing my duties as the schools student councile VP. My good friend Jonna won president and we are now the most amazing tag team ever!
3) So I went to Quebec. Grade 10 french sucks so much that they say hey for 500 buck will take you to quebec for a week. It was an amazing trip and i made some of my best high school memories on the trip. We being Kennedy went with general Amherst school. Everyone got on really well and i made tons of new friends. I'm so glad that I went even if I did gane a ton of weight on the trip because I ate cresants for breakfast everyday. I'm now thinking about going on the Europe trip next year my parents said the would pay for about half but that still means that i need to get 2000 dollars, maybe i'll get a job.
4) We had a forum BBQ at the Acotts place and it was tres fun, but I am now very mosquito bitten and itchy
5) Finally I went to dinner last night to say good bye to a forum teaher that was leaving the dinner was 20$ but I only payed 10 cause forum suplimented it. So i'm like ok i'll buy a cappichino. It was like 3.50, for a little drink!
Oh well i will write more latter after exams bye bye
PS Ok so I tottaly forgot about 30 hr famin which was amazing. I wanted to pull and all nighter but i ended up falling asleep after crashing from a tremedouse sugar high brought on by kool aid. All in all it was great, i got to watch King Kong and hang out with my friend, we also had a dance in the Gym which was fun and um ya we raised i think like 8 grand!
Posted by illiterate at 09:35 AM |
